So It really has been a long time since I wrote in here. I bet no one has looked in this dusty thing for ages. I'm 21 years old now and its amazing how much has changed in two years....and how much hasn't. I'm still in the Navy. Not exactly loving it but it's a job right?? The Navy has taken me to Bahrain and now to Dubai in the UAE (United Arab Emirates for the non-middle east savvy).  Things arent starting out so great here. In fact everything is a mess. I have to laugh because I cant think of very many times in my life that things werent chaotic and filled with drama. How does that happen anyway?? Lord only knows. I wish he would let me in on it.  Yesterday I felt like Jim Carey in Bruce Almighty...LOL. "God is just a big, mean kid on an ant hill". Then I proceeded to drink half a bottle of Jack and wallow like a big baby all day. The worst kind of chaos is the kind where you play it over and over again and psycho analyze the hell out of it  UGHHH.  If God were really like Morgan Freeman maybe he would quit laughing at me messing up all the time and mop a floor with me or something??  Wishful thinking I suppose. The worst part of being here is the feeling of being utterly, entirely ALONE. You cant trust anyone here. So theres no one to talk to.... I just need a hug. Hopefully tomorrow wont drag on as long as I think it will. Also, if anyone cares about the well being of other Sailors here in Dubai, pray that I don't prison shank any of my co-workers. Smite me oh mighty smiter indeed.......<br>

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Amen